My Journey

The Little Things

October 11, 2020 /

After losing Justin, I was off work for four months. During this four months there was a lot going on with the legal aspect of Justin’s death, trying to make some kind of sense of what happened and what was currently happening. My whole life as I knew it was unrecognizable.

I was an avid reader, loved movies and loved to learn different things. Justin and I shared the love of music of different genres and we’d talk about the different artists and what we both liked about them. Music, at this time, brought me pain. Another reminder that I would never have these discussions with him again. Unless it was a children’s movie, I couldn’t watch it. In many shows there is too much violence; a constant reminder of how Justin lost his life. Reading, well you have to be able to focus long enough to comprehend.

Creation. I needed to create something, anything. I started out making wreaths for Justin and neighbors who had lost a family to put on their graves or because it was a new season. Even though I am not the best, I love flowers and plants. Something that brought life. Something positive I could give love and attention to. The new life of Spring represented a new beginning and hope.

I know that it may not seem at the very moment that there is hope and blessings but I promise you there is. I had to force myself then and even now, on not so good days, that God gives us blessings every day. A walk in the Spring seeing His creation. The sound of the birds, the wind on your face. It’s in the little things that we start to find hope and finding the ability to smile and appreciate.

I can’t help but to think of my mom when we would sit out on our porch and smell the honeysuckles or see a dove. My mom loved doves and said they were a sign of peace. With Justin, he is cardinals and blue jays. All these things are the beginning and signs of hope. Remember to find blessings in the little things.

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